Sunday, July 3, 2011
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
❤ketika cinta bertasbih❤
Sekalipun CINTA telah kuuraikan dan kujelaskan panjang lebar.
Namun jika CINTA kudatangi, aku jadi malu pada keteranganku sendiri.
Meskipun lidahku telah mampu menguraikan dengan terang.
Namun tanpa lidah,
CINTA ternyata lebih terang
Sementara pena begitu tergesa gesa menuliskannya
Kata kata pecah berkeping keping begitu sampai kepada CINTA
Dalam menguraikan CINTA, akal terbaring tak berdaya
Bagaikan keldai terbaring dalam Lumpur
CINTA sendirilah yang menerangkan CINTA dan perCINTAan
....semalam aku bertanyakan pada mimpi, apa itu cinta?
cinta itu ibaratnya mainan syaitan, kalau diikut tanpa iman, manusia hanyut, hancur...
....semalam aku bertanyakan pada bulan, apa itu cinta?
cinta itu ibaratnya kaca yang berkilau, kalau tak dikuatkan dengan akidah yang mantap, lekalah manusia dengan kilauan yang palsu...
....semalam aku bertanyakan pada hati, apa itu cinta?
cinta itu ibaratnya jantung yang berdegup memberi manusia hidup, kalau tak dilapikkan dengan malu, ternyata cinta itu hodoh, jantung yang berdegup tanpa jiwa, manusia jadi hina, cinta ternoda...
....semalam aku bertanyakan pada Tuhan, apa itu cinta?
ternyata cinta yang agung itulah cinta yang terindah, tiada jawapan aku dapat, cuma rasa yang terlalu sulit untuk aku gambarkan..
ketika cinta bertasbih pada Yang Esa, aku tertunduk malu sendiri, aku disayangi oleh Dia, tanpa syarat, tanpa dosa...
jantung ini berdegup hanya kerana Dia, jiwa ini ada, iman ku jadi setia...
cinta itu jadi lebih mulia, semua kerana-Nya....
Namun jika CINTA kudatangi, aku jadi malu pada keteranganku sendiri.
Meskipun lidahku telah mampu menguraikan dengan terang.
Namun tanpa lidah,
CINTA ternyata lebih terang
Sementara pena begitu tergesa gesa menuliskannya
Kata kata pecah berkeping keping begitu sampai kepada CINTA
Dalam menguraikan CINTA, akal terbaring tak berdaya
Bagaikan keldai terbaring dalam Lumpur
CINTA sendirilah yang menerangkan CINTA dan perCINTAan
....semalam aku bertanyakan pada mimpi, apa itu cinta?
cinta itu ibaratnya mainan syaitan, kalau diikut tanpa iman, manusia hanyut, hancur...
....semalam aku bertanyakan pada bulan, apa itu cinta?
cinta itu ibaratnya kaca yang berkilau, kalau tak dikuatkan dengan akidah yang mantap, lekalah manusia dengan kilauan yang palsu...
....semalam aku bertanyakan pada hati, apa itu cinta?
cinta itu ibaratnya jantung yang berdegup memberi manusia hidup, kalau tak dilapikkan dengan malu, ternyata cinta itu hodoh, jantung yang berdegup tanpa jiwa, manusia jadi hina, cinta ternoda...
....semalam aku bertanyakan pada Tuhan, apa itu cinta?
ternyata cinta yang agung itulah cinta yang terindah, tiada jawapan aku dapat, cuma rasa yang terlalu sulit untuk aku gambarkan..
ketika cinta bertasbih pada Yang Esa, aku tertunduk malu sendiri, aku disayangi oleh Dia, tanpa syarat, tanpa dosa...
jantung ini berdegup hanya kerana Dia, jiwa ini ada, iman ku jadi setia...
cinta itu jadi lebih mulia, semua kerana-Nya....
Friday, January 21, 2011
allow me to speak...
salam to all readers...(do i hv any readers here???hahaha)
well it's been long since i last write a so-called diary here..i should change the title maybe...this isn't like a diary at all...huhu..maybe the title of this post might seems something big..but honestly,i don't really know what i want to say..hahaha...it's actually pretty much about what had happened in my life for the pass few weeks..it's been super strange and i dno,it's a mixed up of thousands of feelings..one minute i'm happy and sad in the next hour..i really am kinda like a mess those pass few weeks..
i've been close to someone and it all change people's perspective of me.i knew this would happen too.but you know what,at some part of my life,i still just wanna be me..people say this and that,in front or even worst behind my back,it does somewhat effects my feelings..frankly speaking,i often easily get distracted by someone who wants to understand me..to me,there's nothing wrong with that..i love it when someone wanna be my friend and share things with me..
i don't think i'm kinda person who fall so easily in love with someone i just know.to me,the society that i'm living in have so many troubles with this.i don't blame them.it's somehow show that they also do "care" about their surrounding(good thing about that).what else can i do other than just accepting this.people might say i'm a coward or "gedik" or just whatever they wanted to call me,but the truth only God knows.people who know me well wouldn't simply judge me like that.good thing is that i'm getting used to it.it's just that sometimes it hurts me,what's more when it also effect the one that i care.in college,to be honest,i don't seem like i have anyone that i can share my feelings with..other than people who are close to me and care about me.i do appreaciate their presence in my life.i'm afraid of losing someone,always do.coz i do know how's it feel.i just hope someday,people will be willing to know me more before judge me.i know i'm not a perfect person,i didn't claim that i am one.i just need someone to called friend.if you really know what it means,then just come and talk to me anytime,i can be your friend too.just that sometimes i might get used to being alone.even in a place full with people.coz sometimes,being alone can make you feel like having thousands of friends around you.
well it's been long since i last write a so-called diary here..i should change the title maybe...this isn't like a diary at all...huhu..maybe the title of this post might seems something big..but honestly,i don't really know what i want to say..hahaha...it's actually pretty much about what had happened in my life for the pass few weeks..it's been super strange and i dno,it's a mixed up of thousands of feelings..one minute i'm happy and sad in the next hour..i really am kinda like a mess those pass few weeks..
i've been close to someone and it all change people's perspective of me.i knew this would happen too.but you know what,at some part of my life,i still just wanna be me..people say this and that,in front or even worst behind my back,it does somewhat effects my feelings..frankly speaking,i often easily get distracted by someone who wants to understand me..to me,there's nothing wrong with that..i love it when someone wanna be my friend and share things with me..i don't think i'm kinda person who fall so easily in love with someone i just know.to me,the society that i'm living in have so many troubles with this.i don't blame them.it's somehow show that they also do "care" about their surrounding(good thing about that).what else can i do other than just accepting this.people might say i'm a coward or "gedik" or just whatever they wanted to call me,but the truth only God knows.people who know me well wouldn't simply judge me like that.good thing is that i'm getting used to it.it's just that sometimes it hurts me,what's more when it also effect the one that i care.in college,to be honest,i don't seem like i have anyone that i can share my feelings with..other than people who are close to me and care about me.i do appreaciate their presence in my life.i'm afraid of losing someone,always do.coz i do know how's it feel.i just hope someday,people will be willing to know me more before judge me.i know i'm not a perfect person,i didn't claim that i am one.i just need someone to called friend.if you really know what it means,then just come and talk to me anytime,i can be your friend too.just that sometimes i might get used to being alone.even in a place full with people.coz sometimes,being alone can make you feel like having thousands of friends around you.
Sunday, July 4, 2010
BAD HAIR DAY~!!
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ok..nothing much to say really..just wanna write about today..im getting freakin' weirdly excited to cut my hair today after i wacthed kandee johnson's tutotials on how to cut ur bangs..im crazy!i know that!with no experience in cutting anything else other than some papers,dried chillies n my own finger,i go and cut my own bang???!!WTH AM I THINKING???!well actually it wasn't that bad til i somehow insanely thinking that the bang is still long,so i go and make another cut,which at that time i couldn't really tell where i put my finger to estimate the length and all..ok,long story short,i didn't purposely make another cut till my bang become that short n mushroom-like..i seriously regretted that i do have courage to do all that..that final adjustment makes it all changed!arghhh!hate my bangs now..its like some kinda geek come out of no where..feel like an alien is even sexier looking n cuter than me now..huhu...TT.TT
ok..nothing much to say really..just wanna write about today..im getting freakin' weirdly excited to cut my hair today after i wacthed kandee johnson's tutotials on how to cut ur bangs..im crazy!i know that!with no experience in cutting anything else other than some papers,dried chillies n my own finger,i go and cut my own bang???!!WTH AM I THINKING???!well actually it wasn't that bad til i somehow insanely thinking that the bang is still long,so i go and make another cut,which at that time i couldn't really tell where i put my finger to estimate the length and all..ok,long story short,i didn't purposely make another cut till my bang become that short n mushroom-like..i seriously regretted that i do have courage to do all that..that final adjustment makes it all changed!arghhh!hate my bangs now..its like some kinda geek come out of no where..feel like an alien is even sexier looking n cuter than me now..huhu...TT.TT
I tHinK i'M iN Lov3 w!tH mAk3-uP~!! =X
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i dont't think i've been this crazy before.i really like out of my mind..haha..seriously..i even made a wishlist of the things that i wanna buy later on(that is depends on my $ ka-ching!) .but,its kinda like boost-up my spirit to work hard and think of a way to earn more money and at the same time,saving part of it as well.you know la,i will,not sure when,but surely and definitely gonna continue my studies later.so,gotta learn to save money from now.it somehow feels good you know to have that spirit of having something on your own effort,it makes me wanna work harder.^__^
had much of fun of the day.thank You Allah for giving me this life,the time for me to smile,to laugh,to share out my love and be a part of somebody else's life too.
getting more and more crazy with make-up and tutorials!!ahhhh!!>.< just can't get enough of it..huhu..after all,i guess it's not like it's something wrong to do right??huhu...>_^v
i dont't think i've been this crazy before.i really like out of my mind..haha..seriously..i even made a wishlist of the things that i wanna buy later on(that is depends on my $ ka-ching!) .but,its kinda like boost-up my spirit to work hard and think of a way to earn more money and at the same time,saving part of it as well.you know la,i will,not sure when,but surely and definitely gonna continue my studies later.so,gotta learn to save money from now.it somehow feels good you know to have that spirit of having something on your own effort,it makes me wanna work harder.^__^
had much of fun of the day.thank You Allah for giving me this life,the time for me to smile,to laugh,to share out my love and be a part of somebody else's life too.
getting more and more crazy with make-up and tutorials!!ahhhh!!>.< just can't get enough of it..huhu..after all,i guess it's not like it's something wrong to do right??huhu...>_^v
Monday, June 28, 2010
meeting nadia...
Saturday,26th June 2010.
Today actually i've made a promise with nadia to meet her at TS.i woke up rather early than the usual day..huhu..after woke up,i straight open up my email n stuff,kinda bored actually to wait til 1 smthg in the afternoon...gagaga...so,waited,wasting my time browsing through the internet (dno actually what i wna do..~.~")
waited n waited,it's 1~!!finally!!so i began to prepare everything,pray,make-up all..then something happened that pissed me off~>.< i supposed to go with xiao wei..but when i gave him sms,he didnt reply..call oso no answer..so i decided to sms his sis,coz it's quite late adi at that time,kesian nadia have to wait so long...sms his sis makes me even pissed off...she go and ask me what i want finding her bro?y want ask he's at home or not?WTH!!!!im who to him?!some stranger trying to woo him or what??!im his girlfriend for God's sake~!>.< then few minutes after that,i received an sms from xiao wei,saying he will pick me up after he had his lunch..grr~!it's almost 3pm,i can't even wait.so i made up my mind,i get a taxi to TS..at that time,im really pissed off..thank God it doesnt cost me much..haiz~~
i managed to reach TS by 3 pm,then go find nadia..we had a chat,walk around for a while,then go eat lunch..i told her bout the incident,it takes time for me to cool down,but not that long..glad i can meet her...through the whole walking n chit-chating,my mind always thinking of how good it could be if yukky n mira oso can join us that day..huhu...hmmm...maybe some day they will come and meet me...
while i was eating,xiao wei suddenly called me,asking me where i am..i told him im at the food court..he's actually came to see me at TS that time,maybe afraid im mad at him..hmm...it kinda ease off my anger..pretty cool...then walk2 again,shopping a bit..oh ya!!u know what!!i've got a chance to go to Etude House!!!aigoo!!so happy~!^^ at 1st i thought,this shop must sell expensive things (as it come frm korea),but i try to enter it with nadia..hehehe..suprisingly~the price are just normal,not that expensive..furhtermore,they're offering 50% discount for some of their items!how cool is that?!!XD well,credits to xiao wei to belanja me those things i bought from Etude House...^_^ saranghaeyo~~<3
after that we did walked to sg. wang for a while...buy nothing there...almost 7,xiao wei nand i sent nadia to lrt station,she needs to go back le..huhu...hope to see her again...me and xiao wei walked again in TS,wna find one shoe that i like,but sadly,tak jumpa..dunno where the shop liao..>.< at 8 went home..
xiao wei tumpang my bro house to take shower,then i go make-up him..hahahaha....simply la,coz he got reunion that nigth,so i just want him look ok a bit ma...hehe...
ok...nite chat a while with yukky n wen jun...then i cnt tahan..sleep kinda early..2 smthg i guess..huhu...that's all lor....bye^^
Today actually i've made a promise with nadia to meet her at TS.i woke up rather early than the usual day..huhu..after woke up,i straight open up my email n stuff,kinda bored actually to wait til 1 smthg in the afternoon...gagaga...so,waited,wasting my time browsing through the internet (dno actually what i wna do..~.~")
waited n waited,it's 1~!!finally!!so i began to prepare everything,pray,make-up all..then something happened that pissed me off~>.< i supposed to go with xiao wei..but when i gave him sms,he didnt reply..call oso no answer..so i decided to sms his sis,coz it's quite late adi at that time,kesian nadia have to wait so long...sms his sis makes me even pissed off...she go and ask me what i want finding her bro?y want ask he's at home or not?WTH!!!!im who to him?!some stranger trying to woo him or what??!im his girlfriend for God's sake~!>.< then few minutes after that,i received an sms from xiao wei,saying he will pick me up after he had his lunch..grr~!it's almost 3pm,i can't even wait.so i made up my mind,i get a taxi to TS..at that time,im really pissed off..thank God it doesnt cost me much..haiz~~
i managed to reach TS by 3 pm,then go find nadia..we had a chat,walk around for a while,then go eat lunch..i told her bout the incident,it takes time for me to cool down,but not that long..glad i can meet her...through the whole walking n chit-chating,my mind always thinking of how good it could be if yukky n mira oso can join us that day..huhu...hmmm...maybe some day they will come and meet me...
while i was eating,xiao wei suddenly called me,asking me where i am..i told him im at the food court..he's actually came to see me at TS that time,maybe afraid im mad at him..hmm...it kinda ease off my anger..pretty cool...then walk2 again,shopping a bit..oh ya!!u know what!!i've got a chance to go to Etude House!!!aigoo!!so happy~!^^ at 1st i thought,this shop must sell expensive things (as it come frm korea),but i try to enter it with nadia..hehehe..suprisingly~the price are just normal,not that expensive..furhtermore,they're offering 50% discount for some of their items!how cool is that?!!XD well,credits to xiao wei to belanja me those things i bought from Etude House...^_^ saranghaeyo~~<3
after that we did walked to sg. wang for a while...buy nothing there...almost 7,xiao wei nand i sent nadia to lrt station,she needs to go back le..huhu...hope to see her again...me and xiao wei walked again in TS,wna find one shoe that i like,but sadly,tak jumpa..dunno where the shop liao..>.< at 8 went home..
xiao wei tumpang my bro house to take shower,then i go make-up him..hahahaha....simply la,coz he got reunion that nigth,so i just want him look ok a bit ma...hehe...
ok...nite chat a while with yukky n wen jun...then i cnt tahan..sleep kinda early..2 smthg i guess..huhu...that's all lor....bye^^
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Finally!!!
Wednesday,23 June 2010.
Hi lil diary~(that's what i used to write/say when i'm using a book to write my diary..FYI im used to have diaries back when i was in form 3,4 and 5..but then i began to feel lazy writing about my life,as it's getting bored and just nothing interesting..i begin to like taking pics instead of writing my experience in a piece of paper or type it out in notepad or something you know..Ok~enough with the grandma's story (sorry about that..XD).What i wanna write is actually about the longest wait ever for only a pair of thing~!grrr!!>.< i finally received my contact lens (crying because so thrilled) after waited for about 1 month or so..So happy!(^_^) From now on i really have to buy for something which is a ready stock..Hate waiting~!Hmm...I just tried it out yesteerday..Once i put it on,i'm like @o@ WTH?!!It's totally HUGE!!16mm cn be that big in my eyes..gosh!i look like an alien..haha!!it's seems like a real doll-eye-wanna-be~erk=.="~i don't know it it really suits me..but...adi buy ma..sobs~~gna buy other brand next time...huhu.."sadly" i can't help myself camwhonying..again...(you gonna get used to that as i love taking pics~^_^v) 'Til then,see ya~!!^^
Hi lil diary~(that's what i used to write/say when i'm using a book to write my diary..FYI im used to have diaries back when i was in form 3,4 and 5..but then i began to feel lazy writing about my life,as it's getting bored and just nothing interesting..i begin to like taking pics instead of writing my experience in a piece of paper or type it out in notepad or something you know..Ok~enough with the grandma's story (sorry about that..XD).What i wanna write is actually about the longest wait ever for only a pair of thing~!grrr!!>.< i finally received my contact lens (crying because so thrilled) after waited for about 1 month or so..So happy!(^_^) From now on i really have to buy for something which is a ready stock..Hate waiting~!Hmm...I just tried it out yesteerday..Once i put it on,i'm like @o@ WTH?!!It's totally HUGE!!16mm cn be that big in my eyes..gosh!i look like an alien..haha!!it's seems like a real doll-eye-wanna-be~erk=.="~i don't know it it really suits me..but...adi buy ma..sobs~~gna buy other brand next time...huhu.."sadly" i can't help myself camwhonying..again...(you gonna get used to that as i love taking pics~^_^v) 'Til then,see ya~!!^^
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